today...pg td keje,then went out after work with myB.nk sambung lesen yg dh bhari2 mati..dh bau bangkai dh purse aku tu,hehehe!!!
few days ni byk pikir....where am i heading!sometime feels like going away & starts anew,but got so many things tied me up laa...especially that cc thing...eeeuuuwwww...tense comes all over my head when anyone mention that thing,hahahah!!!!
ermm.....but as always,i know...i been thru...SETIAP YG BLAKU DLM HIDUP KITA,ADA HIKMAHNYA!
yes it is absolutely true....pls let me know if anyone never went thru the situation which later we realise it's the best.ada x?
macam last weekdays,too much workloads,tense with the customers...and shortage money of rm100....but i let myself think,i might have taken things from someone....amt that much,so that's y i lost it.quite amaze with myself coz leh pikir that deep.today....alhamdulillah,a very nice customer gave me rm50 in return of helping him solving his problem.rasa so guilty to take it...tp he just put the money in front of me...says "ni bg ke ciklaa...."...i'm shocked,then says.."xpelaaa......"as to refuse but he just walk away with his family.the only thing i think of now is how could i ever pay him back coz im so in need at the moment he gave his help.
see....Allah made things nicely for us.He make us in hard time so we appreciate the good time......
&one more....He made us as what we are today coz we deserve it.....
y am i still single?bile pikir2....byknyaa things i still have to do on my own.if i ever had someone,will he able to negotiate of what i need to?will i negotiate for what he need to do?of course i will...its just that i have'nt meet the one who would be considerate to my needs,i guess:)
how many person we met,we loved all the way until today?y didn't we meant to be with them?what had we done wrong till we end up apart?
sometime we don't do any wrong....and that's make we apart.sometime the one we loved found that you are too perfect for them so they scare they can't fit u.but also,you do so much wrong....coz too scare to lose them.you do things others like but you forget to ask if they like it or not.....
why don't you meant to be together?
coz Allah knows....they are not the one for u,no matter u think that nobody would suits u as much as they do.hey...Allah knows better....not better,but knows all!how lucky u are to know and to love few person coz u learned from it how different humans are to one another.it also makes u realize how many things u actually like and hates in someone.
example : (cam teaching plk...muahhaha!)
today u think that you in love with A and would never love anyone else as much as u love him/her....but one day,when Allah meant u to meet the right one...let say B...then u realize it's not perfections we really need in someone....but it is someone who make us feels complete!
i understand why i am who i am today.....
He giving me time to serve my family as much as i allowed to until He decide i can no longer doing it alone.He lets me do and completes all my things....on my own....coz maybe i'm not yet ready to shares life with someone....and bcoz He is also preparing someone to complete his things before we share it:) Insya Allah.....
So...in any relationship i have now...or all of us have now..is bcoz He knows it's the best for us....if it is a sweet wonderful one....then its a gift of what we did or will do in our life....
if it's bitter....hard....then its a test....a bigger gift bcoz it is to give us strenght to face tomorrows better....and lucky us,not so many that have been tested with hardship as a sign of His remembrance.
TQ Allah....for everything i had today.....eventhough most of the time,it feels like i have no more strenght to take another step....and tears fell down my face....
