ada lagi...all about my hubBy:)

yesterday 

myB bli hp baru....alasan sb bli hp baru & tak mnyempat2 tgu next year is sb current hp xde charger.brilliant excuse isn't?that's my hubby....bcoz of that aku cam tliur jer nk mjoin diri hubby ku itu utk grab that android also!

ermm...br berazam no more gadget & konon2 my lovely IP will be my last gadget in my life,tp pegangan dh agak goyah ni.his galaxyS sounds great....tp based on his advise,aku xyohlaa tuko new phone anymore.he would upgrade my IP and while he do that i can use his new baby...he ignoring me since he got that little baby of him!:(

"B,what if syg accidently scratch ur baby's screen?" i asked that when he tell me he would let me use that baby of his while he upgrading my IP.and the answer is....

"Ooo...it's ok syg,i will just not talking to syg and turn off my hp for a month....!"ceeiitt......hahaha!!!!

today...he woke up @5am to be with his new baby!xpenah pun ngan aku he wake up that time lewat sket dr tu,adalah! & boleh kira brape baris ayat dia type while chatting with me this morning untill i had to call him twice just to know whether he's busy or what.

"syg...i'm exploring my new hp since 5am today.i still got some lil'more to do....syg xbusy ke?do ur work first syg ye?"

"ermm....B lum mkn yet,all i'm thinking of is this hp and u,dear!"
"tapi dlu u said i'm the one yg u always think of?"
"ermm...dlu mmg syg sorg,skrg kena madu laa dgn baby baru ni!"

so,currently....i am sharing his love with his hp...the samsung galaxy S!huhuhu......

*can u share me with FB,dear?:P*

I LOVE U FOREVER <3

my1801...

last saturday....
tayar bocor.the tayar already rosak...mujo xpecah.lucky me on that part....but i had to change the tyre and cost me $240.mcm tau2 this month gaji aku awal.

today....
bcoz of gaji aku msuk smlm my bebeh -the car- ni wat hal breakdown plk.this time....$400.there goes duit aku utk byr ccard.cewah...so tht i cant shops a lil'more:P & also mbakar harapan aku utk shopping with my cash.huahuahuaa.........

quite geram jugak...sb lama dh mention psl keta ni kat org2 bkenaan,tp everyone wat cam rilek jer.last2....i'm the one who have to bear the cost!

after this....this is it,no more bagi kat anyone wat harta myBebeh ni.

since my last post....081010 to my beloved friends!

YUHUUU......
quite sometime i didn't story mory kat blog ni.same goes to the other blog of me n my B:)so today...rasa cam byk cite nk story.perasaan gitulaa tp xtaulaa how many words jer nanti!

1st of all....i love my B most of all!only u B,i didn't share u mith my ip@netbook anymore ok?huhuhu....

2ndly....God knows how much i miss my babes,lovely friends.gals....i really miss u all!i'm terribly sorry for everything happens all the way.just hope that u all would understand n hope u also understand me B:)
one thing i miss most of my friends....is chatting with u babes!it so obvious that i could never chat with a man like we use to chat girls....and i miss that so much!ermm...should i chg my B to chat like u girls did?errkk....maybe not.don't want my man jd girly plk,huhuhu!

babes....
i miss us hanging out together or at least gossiping in FB(sorry for deleting my account,im in process of begging for a new acc,hehehe!)i miss us laughing,ngumpating(hahaha...)&revising cite2 lama yg 40kali di story by us and that sort of story still make us laugh like the first time,rite babes?
i miss sharing all our problems and dreams,miss telling each other about the hardest things happens to the smallest thing in our live...which i believe a man would say that is a ridiculous to mention about!(it's not u B,not always u...hehhehe!)

to my dear friends.....
i don't want to lose u all.....
i would always love all of u like i used to....
i miss u all so much.....

wonder whether i still have u all around as before or not?:(

lovelife:.......past & future!

it's been a year when we break up our relationship.....and now we're on ot again. tQ for being more convincing to me dear!but me...to convince u?

i always think that past does not matter for me....and maybe for others.i just accept people around me as what they are in front of me today.if they wish to let me in of their past,i'm very glad to listen.but if not....i would understand that they might not want to think of their past time.as much as i want to start new with my beloved!

a person who we know 10 years ago might not be the same as we see today.....sometime it doesn't event take years to change a person.either to be a better man or vice-versa.

a good friend of mine called recently.....makes me realise that whenever He wants it,our life would change in a blinks without time for us to prepare.few months ago she got married....finally!of course i'm happy for her....i know how hard for her to finally decide the man of her life.yes...i sense something is wrong when she talks of her marriage.so,my sense are right.surprisingly....she told me her husband is a married man and she just knew after all her wedding preparation are done.what should a daughter do when it comes to this matter?how she wish she knew earlier.....but then she decide to go through....being a second wife,unexpectedly!past is past.....she accept it just the way she believes He is giving the best for her.

i wish u can let go of my past dear.....i told u lot's of it and my fault i missed few points.but i can't remember everything months ago.my fault i don't understands u....i have no idea of who i am to u before so i thought that i am not a matter of your life as much as i am today!

SORRY.....!!!

Love & Tears....

today...pg td keje,then went out after work with myB.nk sambung lesen yg dh bhari2 mati..dh bau bangkai dh purse aku tu,hehehe!!!
few days ni byk pikir....where am i heading!sometime feels like going away & starts anew,but got so many things tied me up laa...especially that cc thing...eeeuuuwwww...tense comes all over my head when anyone mention that thing,hahahah!!!!
ermm.....but as always,i know...i been thru...SETIAP YG BLAKU DLM HIDUP KITA,ADA HIKMAHNYA!
yes it is absolutely true....pls let me know if anyone never went thru the situation which later we realise it's the best.ada x?
macam last weekdays,too much workloads,tense with the customers...and shortage money of rm100....but i let myself think,i might have taken things from someone....amt that much,so that's y i lost it.quite amaze with myself coz leh pikir that deep.today....alhamdulillah,a very nice customer gave me rm50 in return of helping him solving his problem.rasa so guilty to take it...tp he just put the money in front of me...says "ni bg ke ciklaa...."...i'm shocked,then says.."xpelaaa......"as to refuse but he just walk away with his family.the only thing i think of now is how could i ever pay him back coz im so in need at the moment he gave his help.
see....Allah made things nicely for us.He make us in hard time so we appreciate the good time......
&one more....He made us as what we are today coz we deserve it.....
y am i still single?bile pikir2....byknyaa things i still have to do on my own.if i ever had someone,will he able to negotiate of what i need to?will i negotiate for what he need to do?of course i will...its just that i have'nt meet the one who would be considerate to my needs,i guess:)
how many person we met,we loved all the way until today?y didn't we meant to be with them?what had we done wrong till we end up apart?
sometime we don't do any wrong....and that's make we apart.sometime the one we loved found that you are too perfect for them so they scare they can't fit u.but also,you do so much wrong....coz too scare to lose them.you do things others like but you forget to ask if they like it or not.....
why don't you meant to be together?
coz Allah knows....they are not the one for u,no matter u think that nobody would suits u as much as they do.hey...Allah knows better....not better,but knows all!how lucky u are to know and to love few person coz u learned from it how different humans are to one another.it also makes u realize how many things u actually like and hates in someone.
example : (cam teaching plk...muahhaha!)
today u think that you in love with A and would never love anyone else as much as u love him/her....but one day,when Allah meant u to meet the right one...let say B...then u realize it's not perfections we really need in someone....but it is someone who make us feels complete!
i understand why i am who i am today.....
He giving me time to serve my family as much as i allowed to until He decide i can no longer doing it alone.He lets me do and completes all my things....on my own....coz maybe i'm not yet ready to shares life with someone....and bcoz He is also preparing someone to complete his things before we share it:) Insya Allah.....
So...in any relationship i have now...or all of us have now..is bcoz He knows it's the best for us....if it is a sweet wonderful one....then its a gift of what we did or will do in our life....
if it's bitter....hard....then its a test....a bigger gift bcoz it is to give us strenght to face tomorrows better....and lucky us,not so many that have been tested with hardship as a sign of His remembrance.
TQ Allah....for everything i had today.....eventhough most of the time,it feels like i have no more strenght to take another step....and tears fell down my face....

My BiTterSwEet wOnDerful LiFe

My BiTterSwEet wOnDerful LiFe

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FRIENDSHIP....

Bismillah......
Browsing thru my hp....sms since early this year pun still ada.hehehe.... so many things had happens all those while.before that...lagilaa byk!
friendship.....
guess i can make novels out of each my fren i have:) all my bloved frens ever.....God knows what we went thru all this while rite babes?how hard living with frens and life is harder without frens.......
to have a good frens?u dont just meet someone....say hi...and there u go.."this is my bestfren ever!"if it ever that easy....how happy life could be to all of us.
stage by stage we meet new people,means new frens also.i wish i could go thru kids time again cos everyone was so sincere n be themselves in friendship.we having fun....laughing....playing...everyday we went thru new adventure.no nonsense problems....as time passed by,kwn2 ms tu pun...silih ganti.ermm....agknya sb friendship ms to built up so easy,so kite xrasa sgt when we lost one kn?
lg besar....umur makin naiklaa.....(sensitip!!)lg mcm2 org kite jumpe....mcm2 perangai we start to know and kite pun ada attitude kite sdiri.naively (ada ke pktn ni?)we assume everyone around us accept attitude kite tu.mcm2 pesen....gong,slow,laju.lasak,ganas,bollok....seme ada!campur2kn sesedap ati.....each of us expect kite accept attitude masing2 pdhal lam ati...."ohh...myampah ngan die ni!"hahaha.......adalaa jgk yg aku jumpe peel gini!hhaa......so unmatured kn?
as time grows....(lagi..)dh makin matured....attitude rupanya lg macam2.at this stage i guess i learned to know who's a real friends.
a true friend last forever......not just ms kite senang,ms kite gumbira.....and another important value is.....this person called a friend is always there whenever we need them.bukan duk bkepit jer ngan kite....tp dr mula until sometime whenever we feel no one is with us,dia ada utk kite.ada comfortkn kite.dia mungkin xtahu what we go thru but they are around to cheer us up@to share the tears.these kind of person are the friends i have now......
all of them comes with their own attitude...their own package(mcm brg jer plk!)but they were wonderful person i ever known.thru them i learned so much......how lucky i am to go thru all those moments we had bcoz if not,i  would not be who i am today!
LOVES U ALL FRENS....!!!ALL MY BEST FRENS EVER....InsyaAllah:)

myB:)

Okeyyy.....it's nice having B around:)we get along quite well lately....hope it last forever.
gud news...myB got a job,finally!cam dok caya jer....hehehhee!tp quite far laaa.
eventhough we didn't meet up much tp lg jauh nanti lg susah jumpe kut....isk!
ekceli...my phobia of LDR appears...
there's no status yet but loved to be this way....no matter what people see us as!

Amrullah

my dear nephew

las tuesday cukup sebulan dh die...so,meaning kena g cucuk.hepatitis ke menda ntah...luper.bukan aku pun hok bwk.balik cucuk....asek mrengek2 jer,al maklumlaa cucu manja.skali tgk cam ngader!hehehe......asek nk dukung jer.

tp gop part yg dok best....dia stat kena cirit birit.smpai berbelas kali produce smlm.kesian sgt...nurse advise tukar susu formula lain sb maybe susu yg ada tu xsuit him.agak was2 jgk sb dh 3tin dh abeh susu tu.so from frisolac..we chg to isomil,as advise dr org2 bpengalaman.byk benor jenis susu lening....patutlaa org mls nk breastfeed kut!around 12 bg isomil,tp ms tu perut dia cam kembung,asek berak jer...dia vomit.

seme panic dh & he looks pale....smpai ke fingers!rs sgt hopeless and no one can help except Him!so we decide pegi klinik...doc suh stop formula milk(lam paler aku...abih waste 2can of milk!)&breastfeed only.mslhnya...susu ibu xcukup.so selang seli stkt yg ada dgn air garam given by doc.pity Amrullah....

at 5am...las dia berak.but we waited for 2hours.after that we dcide to give him little amt of formula milk sb dia lapor giler.....

actually mmg betul susu frisolac tu xfit him.thats y ada rashes...sbnrnya sign that susu tu xsuitable.bile dh besar sket br stat cirit birit@sembelit as result of susu yg xsesuai.aku tot same cam kite,salah mkn terus smpai ke perut!

so..we giving him new milk.today he's fine....klu xkena submit ke ward.cuma dia xtido n asek nk riba jer!hehehee.....

byk lesson psl baby dpt from this experience...tp yg plg jammed,aku xcukup tidooo!!!!

road of life...(ntah mcmn dpt idea ni!)

td,tgh mikir nk blk kut mn...suddenly cross my mind,jln2 tu mcm our life.ada option.akan ada yg lama n yg baru!

skrg nk blk kg aku ada 2jln...jln baru n lama.dr kecik lalu jln yg sama...dh tahu selekoh katne,katne kena slow,katne leh laju...tepi jln tu umah sape...kedai mn!serasi sgt...even org kata,pejam mata pun kite tau kite katne.rs selamat je....

mcm hidup,jumpe someone/environment yg sama...xkekok lg dh.fhm dh perangai mcmn,seronok jer lalu.

tp mcm jln jgk,lama2...blubang2 kiri kanan.ada pokok tumbang,ada xcident,traffic jam.hati makin berat...ms tu we wish the road is as good as b4,ms it's still new.

mcm human jgk,bile bosan...buat mcm2 perangai mcm jln yg makin rosak tu.kdg2 human xsedar dia berubah...cuma sbelah pihak yg trasa.so they wish for something else.en jln dh bosan asyik keta sama yg lalu,keta plk xthn dh dgn jln yg byk mslh.so...time's up!there comes another option....nk xnk the car got to find another road.

so...suddenly ada option,jln baru.hr2 lalu jln tu.bestlaa sb jln baru...kn?biarlaa wpun xbiasa sgt tp best.clear je!we decide this is it....wpun br jer jumpe jln tu.we dcide no more old ones,nk lupakan yg lama.

suddenly after somewhile....kite tpaksa lalu jln lama tu.

suddenly br kite sedar...deep inside,we still miss the old one,xkiralaa how much it hurts us....n how nice the new one are,inside us...we could never forget n stop loving the one we truly love no matter how we try.

kite blh lie to ourselves...mcm fine jer n go on with new situation.tp bila keadaan bawak kite balik pd satu ms lampau kite,ms tu br kite sedar n fhm apa hati kite mau sbnrnya,br kite tahu perasaan sbnr kita.

ermmm....ntah pape aku ngarut ni.xtaulaa korg fhm ke dok.tp yg pasti,org blh ckp mcm2 psl perasaan diorg(kite jgk mcm tu)tp sbnrnya satu ms akn tiba yg akan buat diorg sedar apa diorg nk dlm hidup.cuma ms dh sedar tu,adakah msih sempat nk memilih yg kite nak tu@dh tlambat....???

*this notes is all about everyone...not just myself!tp xtaulaa korg fhm ke xmaksud aku ni...?*